Onca

Guys...ugh. It's like no matter how I try to figure it out, my mind flip-flops from one second to the next. People say 'just concentrate on school for now, you don't have to settle down', but I feel like I'm just not the sort who can just be in school and not supplement it with other activities, wherein I fall for people. And, well, I don't want to give up the good things I have, now.

I'm trying to find where I fit into things. School-wise...do I want to stay at PSU? Work-wise, I love my job, but I don't intend to be here for good. I've got bigger things I want to do. That's why I'm -getting- a degree, hey? Romance...yeah. Where do I begin? It's like knowing I want one thing one minute, and not being sure if I can work it out or if that's best for me, the next. And pro/con lists just lean towards whichever decision I'm feeling biased to, at that point. And am I convincing myself a move or a different school is what I want so I can make my decision easier? This is my life...but that's why romance is important, because I like feeling loved, and I like loving others.

I'm finding ways to express my thoughts to some people. I just worry about judgement. I always do.

Well, what girl doesn't, really? I envy those that can be more carefree than I.