Destruction and Resolution

So, there's this guy I'm dating. You know all about that. He...frustrates me. It's too much to even begin, but I have to give some idea, so think of these words: emotionless, unresponsive, roller coaster, cocky, sweet, thoughtless.

I realize only one of those words has a good connotation. That's where things stand right now.

He's been awesome this week, well...mostly. He's been nice and thoughtful and all, but I'm almost sure it's because I've been giving him a lot of breathing room. More on that soon.

He often forgets to get a hold of me when he says he will, chooses other plans over me, expects me to be the one to plan many things, and resents me wanting to know what he's up to. And he's still been a jerk even while being pretty cool this week.

Here's the part you've heard before, more or less. There's a guy at work, one I've fallen very hard for in recent days. He's funny and sweet and has fallen for me just as hard. He just yesterday broke up with his 16 year old girlfriend because they've been fighting and he's been tired of dealing with her drama. He's 20, for the record. And he liked me before the breakup, so I guess there's no worry about rebounding and such.

Last weekend, the guy I'm dating (Brian) had drill. Marine Corps, once a month, y'know. Was supposed to be his last ever, but last year he broke his collarbone and missed a few, and they just told him Friday he'd have to spend another full year in. He, big bad Marine with no emotion, admitted to crying, so I feel worse for feeling distant from him lately. Note that he didn't call me when this happened though. You know how I feel about people I care about getting a hold of me when things suck. Especially my boyfriend.

David and I have talked a lot. We -can- actually talk. Which is different from lately.

Do I want to be the bitch that ditches the Marine when he's down? Not really. But I'm so tired of the ups and downs and the jerk to sweet and being told I have thin skin and being teased about everything I do to the point that I feel particularly insignificant in comparison.

I like our inside jokes. Acting like penguins, joking about Left 4 Dead, Exalted, etc. Playing games together is fun, when he remembers not to tell me things like 'man, that shot sucked', and so on.

So where's this leave me? Infer from there.

I feel like my head's imploding. But could I really stay with someone so spiritually and emotionally uninvolved with the world around them? Could I be with someone more free-spirited, like Joe was, but to a much lesser extent? What's best for me? If you read this...insight would be lovely.
-O